Before I got married, I said to myself that after the status switch, I would want to change. Change for the better. Its not that before I got married, I was bad but there are some old habits of mine that I'm not particularly proud to say out loud.

I still remember how I nag at Abang of how some things that he did, I wasn't too happy with. I keep telling him that make sure by the time he's my husband, he better change for the better cos I said that I might tolerate now but may not in the future. And all the while I'm nagging at him, never once he rebutted abt me changing myself too. I guess that time, I could only think abt his bad ways and consider myself as "good".

Now being married to him for a month plus, I'm very proud of my Abang bcos he did change for the better whereas I'm ashamed of myself bcos I'm still the same old me. His actions are definitely louder than words as compared to me, - talk only, no action. (cakap ajer lebih.. eksen takdah!!)

That's the problem with me. I love to procrastinate in doing E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. Seriously.. That's one of my old deadly habits. Keep telling myself to get rid of it but somehow its still here.. You see? How to change at the rate I'm going? Sigh...

I know sighing doesn't help but I certainly have to change. Die die.. I must change for the better.

I just signed up for my Dec exams and going to signed up for the revision class tomorrow.. And I definitely have to register by tomorrow cos the deadline is this Saturday. See? A classic example by a procrastinator.

Another thing is that the revision class that I'm signing up for has classes on HARI RAYA from 1-7pm!! What a way to celebrate raya for the first time with Abang as a married couple. I did ask for his input on this and he said its up to me.. I told him that if I sacrifice my raya for my revision class, I will make sure that I wont play play and make sure that I study hard to pass the paper. And all he said was, "We'll see..."

I make sure that THIS time I will DO what I SAY and not talk cock sing song like I usually do. And now I have to get back to work cos I have tons of work to do that I have putting aside since I came back from my leave. Procrastinate again lah.. what else!!!! Hehehehe....